I am going to be honest. I am in a pissy mood. I am feeling really depressed lately about the adoption. I think it is just because I am so tired of just waiting. I feel like that is all you really do when you are adopting. You wait on other people. Wait wait wait. And that's where we are at. Just waiting.
I think what else is bothering me is that I desperately miss Shaina. I am really needing a Haiti trip right now so I can hold my lovey again. But due to a loved one's health issues, there is no way I can leave now, or anytime in the foreseeable future. And that just sucks.
For the rest of you adopting parents out there; do you ever have those moments where it just doesn't feel real? It doesn't feel like it will ever happen and you won't ever have your little one home? It has been feeling like that for me lately. I stare at photos of video of her and wonder if she will ever get to come home.
Have I depressed you yet? Sorry if I have. But I know most of you reading this know exactly how I am feeling because you are, or have been, there too.
Ok, that is enough of my rambling for today.
Thanks for listening!